Life has taken a turn for the depressing. I never thought that I would ever face the axe. That's right, I face the axe. As if execution was not bad enough, I have to deal with the humiliation. I guess some people might call it Karma, given that I was not particularly nice to JM. And when I say not nice, I mean that I ignored her for the mostpart, not acknowledging her, as to do so would make my blood boil in my veins. I instead decided to pick up her slackand ignore her. Which was not nice, but not horrible either. In the great scheme of things, she was one of the crappiest interns that I have come across. Crap to the point of dangerous. I try to convince myself that justice would prevail, but being here, I think not.
Making things more complicating, would be the fact that I am unsure about my path. I used to be dead-on certain that I wanted to be a physician. Nothing you said could deter me from the yellow brick road to physician-dom. I hadmy mentors around me, rallying to keep me interested and it worked!. Unfortunately I have since lost the drive. Speaking to Tay and Fergs, they have convinced me thatI should not be using emotions to deal with my life. That emotions were unstable and fickle. Hmmm...

So yes, that is the sum of what has kept me melancholic and choleric for the past week. I cannot dig my way out of this I think, and I believe that I must just allow it to run its course and trust that all will be well.

-listening to When You Were Young by the Killers--July 14th 2009-